[Hello, partner. Milla's acquired a wheelchair and brought him back to their house, where she's going to be present in the background to ensure he doesn't die.
Four is one of the last people he wants to see, even without the affliction; he shrinks back in her presence, looking away.]
[ Hello, partner. Four waits until most of Shirasu's visitors leave until she comes back home, just so she can get away from his cursed feelings for a time.
She glances at Milla, but she stays a respectful distance away from both of them. ]
... I really don't know how honest you are. Even now.
[ It is ideal, isn't it? But Four doesn't think she can avoid not coming back to the house, and she wants to know what kind of answers fear makes him say. Can't he lie when he's afraid, too? ]
You said you were afraid of me, but I was always afraid of you, too.
[ Milla's here to witness how dysfunctional this partnership is. ]
[ She's not sure how to take this, that for some reason Shirasu thought Hisoka was less than a threat than she was. Hisoka is Hisoka, and her abilities are limited here. ]
You trusted him more than you did me.
[ It's laughable, but she doesn't laugh. He may or may not be right for it, but that doesn't mean she doesn't feel a whole gamut of negative emotions because of this. There's a surge of anger, but she also feels like she's worthless. ]
I shouldn't be as shocked as I am, but—
[ Her face contorts, like she doesn't know if she wants to scream or cry. ]
I only trusted him to some extent. The same as anyone else here.
[Maybe it's just easier for shady people to work together, to know the risks and accept them to link up anyway. Maybe he was just resistant to trusting someone he found a few similarities with.
He's not sure, right now, and her emotions certainly don't help.]
...after it didn't work, I-- did mean to try. I wasn't lying to you. I gave you my element because I intended to try.
[The easy way out failed and left only the harder route of actually working with her.]
[It just makes it all worse, the feedback from her emotions as she cries; his own breath hitches, but he hasn't come close to tears in far too long to start now.]
... nothing to be done about it, at this point.
[It's all happened, and if no one takes revenge then he'll end up dead as someone convenient to get rid of, if they need an unpaired person or someone to vote for.]
[If it weren't for the fear, there'd be anger. There's a flash of it still, brief and hot, as she throws that line from his memories back at him-- but then it fades.]
...that's what I expected.
[He really should have just killed her, after she saw his memories. She's always known too much.]
[ He really should have just killed her instead of the bird.
The fear and the anger mix, but he gets a brief flash of satisfaction in return. She doesn't know the extent of what those words mean, but she knows they're important. He stabbed her in the back, and she's always been emotional. ]
... I thought yesterday, if someone didn't try to frame me today, that I would tell you something. [ She glances at Milla and leaves her words vague. ] But...
[ She looks almost sad and shakes her head. They both know what happened. ]
I don't know what everyone wants to do with you, but if this is where they want to keep an eye on you, I'll leave the house to you.
[Being left alone is all he wants, right now, even if it won't be truly alone with someone keeping watch. He doesn't want to be around her, and if she doesn't want to be near him either? That suits him just fine.]
[ She never really has. Even when she feels like she can relate to him, she can never tell what he thinks. Feelings are one thing, and thoughts are another. ]
I suppose I still won't know.
[ She's not going to pursue this. She's afraid of what he already knows, and whatever he thinks he knows may only serve to make matters worse.
Speaking honestly, I am currently more concerned about people attempting to take his life, rather than about his current ability to harm others. As such, I would like to take him somewhere other than his assigned dwelling.
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Four is one of the last people he wants to see, even without the affliction; he shrinks back in her presence, looking away.]
...what do you want with me.
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She glances at Milla, but she stays a respectful distance away from both of them. ]
... I really don't know how honest you are. Even now.
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[It's ideal for both of them, isn't it? More distance, less questions, less of her questioning his own responses.]
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You said you were afraid of me, but I was always afraid of you, too.
[ Milla's here to witness how dysfunctional this partnership is. ]
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[She knows about him, she's seen his memories; she knows some of what he's capable of doing.
But with a shake of his head he adds, even as he tries to lean away-]
...it wasn't fear. I'm-- I fear you now, everyone, all of you, but I... it wasn't fear of you that made me act. I just took a risk.
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[ A small giggle escapes her lips, incredulous. ]
Were you so sure you'd be saved if I was voted for?
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I thought-- I had a decent chance.
[...and then it was Minato and Xion and he lowkey went Oh God I'm Going To Die but it worked out.]
Die that way or risk dying if you became corrupt-- perhaps even if you didn't.
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[ She sure sounds and feels bitter saying that, though. ]
How many people have you told I'm dangerous?
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[But framing her was a risk he took, regardless. He could see her doing the same, especially a corrupt version of her.
He shakes his head at the question, though, looking aside.]
...Hisoka's the only one who knew I thought you were a risk.
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[ He could've spread whatever he wanted about her to so many other people. ]
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[He was always a risk too, but-- one he felt he could deal with.]
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You trusted him more than you did me.
[ It's laughable, but she doesn't laugh. He may or may not be right for it, but that doesn't mean she doesn't feel a whole gamut of negative emotions because of this. There's a surge of anger, but she also feels like she's worthless. ]
I shouldn't be as shocked as I am, but—
[ Her face contorts, like she doesn't know if she wants to scream or cry. ]
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[Maybe it's just easier for shady people to work together, to know the risks and accept them to link up anyway. Maybe he was just resistant to trusting someone he found a few similarities with.
He's not sure, right now, and her emotions certainly don't help.]
...after it didn't work, I-- did mean to try. I wasn't lying to you. I gave you my element because I intended to try.
[The easy way out failed and left only the harder route of actually working with her.]
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Now, look where we are.
[ Her words are muffled and broken. ]
I received hints... about you, but I wanted to ignore them. If after...
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... nothing to be done about it, at this point.
[It's all happened, and if no one takes revenge then he'll end up dead as someone convenient to get rid of, if they need an unpaired person or someone to vote for.]
You've never trusted me. You won't start now.
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[ For all her tears a second ago, for the tears that are still rolling down her face, her words sound so cold. It's like the realization seizes her. ]
I can't trust you. If that's what a Fuuma has to say about trust, then that's how it'll be.
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[If it weren't for the fear, there'd be anger. There's a flash of it still, brief and hot, as she throws that line from his memories back at him-- but then it fades.]
...that's what I expected.
[He really should have just killed her, after she saw his memories. She's always known too much.]
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The fear and the anger mix, but he gets a brief flash of satisfaction in return. She doesn't know the extent of what those words mean, but she knows they're important. He stabbed her in the back, and she's always been emotional. ]
... I thought yesterday, if someone didn't try to frame me today, that I would tell you something. [ She glances at Milla and leaves her words vague. ] But...
[ She looks almost sad and shakes her head. They both know what happened. ]
I don't know what everyone wants to do with you, but if this is where they want to keep an eye on you, I'll leave the house to you.
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[Being left alone is all he wants, right now, even if it won't be truly alone with someone keeping watch. He doesn't want to be around her, and if she doesn't want to be near him either? That suits him just fine.]
But if it's what I think-- I already knew.
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... I don't know what you think.
[ She never really has. Even when she feels like she can relate to him, she can never tell what he thinks. Feelings are one thing, and thoughts are another. ]
I suppose I still won't know.
[ She's not going to pursue this. She's afraid of what he already knows, and whatever he thinks he knows may only serve to make matters worse.
She turns to leave. ]
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[There's a call from Milla, as she turns to depart.]
For tonight, I will take Shirasu elsewhere. The house is yours.
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[ Shirasu may be a known murderer and everything, but he is also the one with the broken legs. ]
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Speaking honestly, I am currently more concerned about people attempting to take his life, rather than about his current ability to harm others. As such, I would like to take him somewhere other than his assigned dwelling.
It is not just for his sake—but yours, as well.
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[ She remembers all the standoffs right before or right around when the fear hit. TIME IS FAKE THE TRIAL FEELS LIKE A FEVER DREAM ]
That is probably wise. Thank you, Milla. Where are you going to take him?
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But I hope that you can trust that I will do my best not to further invoke the fear he has within him, for both of your sakes.
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On one hand, she doesn't really care to see Shirasu for a long while. On the other hand, she remembers Milla casually cutting him during the trial.
Which hand weighs more.... ]
I don't know if... trust is the right word for anything I feel right now, but I do feel that I can't persuade you of anything.
[ She's emotionally exhausted, and even if she's getting better at pushing back the fear she feels from Shirasu , she's too tired to fight. ]
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That will have to do for now.
Thank you, Four.